5 Questions on a Friday!

Wow, it's been forever since I've done a 5QF with Mama M :)

1. What ringtone do you have on your cell phone?
It's one of those generic tones that they give you on your androids. Mine is a rockin' guitar solo! However, I've downloaded a ton of songs to transform into tones..I've just been too lazy to convert.
2. What is your favorite memory from this summer?
LAS VEGAS Baby!! Between seeing Carrot Top, Criss Angel, Celine Dion and the Thunder from Down Under...how could it not be my favorite memory. And I can't forget the fact that it was a mother-daughter trip...great memories there <3
3. Paper books or ebooks?
I just purchased a Nook about a month ago, and I'm pretty sure I won't go back to paper books. My bookcase was getting a little stuffed anyways. Now I just have to make another book purchase..a Nook with one book is kinda lame :)
4. If you could have one home upgrade what would it be and why?
That it would magically look like all those designer houses, decor matching linens...expensive drapes and furniture, painted walls....a girl can dream
5. When was your first serious boyfriend/girlfriend?
Aaahhhh ;) Middle school, His name was Charles and we dated 6th-10th grade. I moved to another city only 45 minutes away and we broke up due to "long distance" How lame... I'll always remember my first bf!

Make sure you head over to My Little Life and link up today...It's Friday, WOOHOO!!

After a Year off...

I'm Back :)

It's been a crazy year, I must say. I posted a blog entry back in September '10 about Losing it, and now I'm here to say I'm Gaining it! haha A lot of things have changed since I last was here at the Harbor.
It's been a year of ups and downs and sometimes on the roller coaster I've cried and at other times I've held my hands up high and screamed for joy!

The highs of this past year...

• Mother Daughter trip to Las Vegas, baby :) That was back in June and we had a blast. I'll definitely have to post a day to day for that. I can't wait to go back!


• My baby turned 4 and he just started his second year of preschool, 4k this year! And the best part, he actually wants to go. WOOHOO I even gave him his very first cool party with his friends from school


• I've been a preschool teacher at my current job for a year!! I love my boss and I enjoy working with most of the people at The Nook


• I'm 60 days, give or take, away from entering bachelorette-hood. I've officially been separated for 365+ days and I'm ready to move on with my life and start fresh with my little man!


• I attended my first Drag Queen Show with my favorite Gay Uncles and had a blast with them :)


• I paid to have a professional photographer capture some special moments between my kiddo and I, and so far loving the previews...the rest of the pictures aren't available. It had been since Easter '09 since K had his pictures taken and we were long over due for family shots


• I had my first real casino/gambling experience..even before Vegas at Harrah's in Cherokee....twice this summer. Came out $200 ahead :) I'm totally addicted to the slot we played...not addicted to gambling though!

There were only a few negatives in the year...so I can't complain. Of course, realizing that you're getting a divorce is a bit of a debbie downer, so that's a big fat negative turned positive though. I also lost my grandmother (step dad's mom) in September '10...they say when it rains, it pours, and that was a definite rough week. And just recently, I received more bad news. My dad was diagnosed with Cancer, stage 4 lung. It has metastasized to 7 other places, so please keep him in your thoughts and prayers :) Thanks

So there ya have it. I'm back and ready to roll. I've missed out on documenting the happenings and having those memories there for me... It was nice to take that year off and figure out some things, find myself and become a better person.

Losing It...

...In a million ways :)

I'm losing patience quickly nowadays. I've been keeping my sister's kids this past week and I must commend Moms out there with more than one. I don't know what it is about my kiddo, but he's not into having another kid around. He's kinda bad at sharing, especially when it comes to his Mommy. Looks like it's an only child for me HAHA

I'm losing control of time....only because it seems to be flying by. I can't believe it's already September. It feels like this year just started but yet it's almost over. It's actually quite scary.

I wish I was losing more weight....can I throw that in there?! I'm starting a new routine soon and getting out of the house and walking the bridge in the city. It's huge and it'll be a huge accomplishment for me.

I'm losing myself...
In the situation I'm in recently, I'm losing me. I do give myself a lot of credit, however. I may be losing pieces of me, but I'm also gaining and maintaining, too. I have yet to lose my hope, faith or trust. May be in some people and instances in my life...but I have the hope that things will get better, the faith to believe in it, and the trust to keep moving along!

Losing has never looked so good in my life. I had an interview on Wednesday for a job I'm really hoping I will get. It will make things so much easier for me and my family....it'll help things fall back into place. I'll know tomorrow if the position is mine :) So, here's to that HOPE FAITH & TRUST!

I'm waiting for all this loss in my life to keep taking it's turn for the better and I gain everything in life that I'll ever need/want. One day next week will be a deciding factor. If you are a religious person, please...I ask you to pray for me on Tuesday. I'm losing my 3 factors when I think about that day, but I know it's all in God's hands.

“Without faith, hope and trust, there is no promise for the future, and without a promising future, life has no direction, no meaning and no justification." Adlin Sinclair

The View From Here

I started my "do good" journey yesterday by being a hero and donating blood :) There was a local blood drive blitz happening and I wanted to be a part of it. My mother and I made a trip to one of the many locations set up and gave our blood to save a life! My view from our experience was amazing. Many people showed up in the 2 hours we were there, some even donating double. There were a ton of volunteers from the American Red Cross setting up tables and chairs, manning the canteen area, taking info and even watching my child! I was blessed to be able to share the experience with my mother and for the good feeling I have knowing that my donation may save a life.

If you are a healthy individual and feel like you can make a difference, please don't hesitate to find your local American Red Cross and donate. They are always in need of blood, especially the rare types. Just think about how many lives were saved yesterday by the many people who came out to the 3 locations in a 12 hour period. I made a difference, you can too!

Sunday FunDay

1. If you could host a Reality TV show, which one would it be?
Amazing Race, most definitely. I love that show! It'd be an easy way to travel around the world :) and even get paid for it. I'd love to be a contestant on that show too
2. Do you put your seat belt on before or after you start the car?
It's a little bit of both. I sometimes let it go until it starts warning me that I'm unbuckled. Usually I put it on between starting the car and putting it in reverse
3. Shave or hair removal cream?
If the hair removal cream was permanent, I'd be all up for that. For now, I'm shaving.
4. What's your favorite feature in a house?
A fireplace is always nice. But my favorite feature in a house would be that the whole house is mine! One day that'll happen...
5. What is your favorite "Fall" scent?
As weird as it may sound, I'm all about the smell of burning leaves. If I could I would bottle it up and make a candle! There's just something about the smell.
6. What tv show are you looking forward to seeing the most this Fall??
Grey's Anatomy...of course! I'm ready for all my favorite shows to return, though..I'm tired of seeing reruns :)
7. Personal Shopper or Personal Chef?
Personal Chef who likes to shop...haha I'd hire a personal chef to help me eat healthier. Then after I lose the weight, he or she could go out and help me shop for new, smaller clothes! Isn't that genius?!
8. What is the first word that comes to mind when you think of "Fall"?
Leaves...I think of the leaves changing and all the wonderful colors out there. I love the colors of orange, red and yellow...how they surround you! I think it's a good color combo :)

Find Myself

These past couple of weeks have been the pretty hard on me. I'm beaten down, but not yet past need repair....and I'm thankful for that. I know I can be a strong person and I will get through this. But why does it have to hurt so bad? Why do we say such cruel things? I really need to find myself....

I need to do something good with my life. I'm doing my best with raising our son, at least I like to think I am. I tried my best at being a great wife. Now I just need to DO my best in being me! But who am I?

I'm a mother, a daughter...a sister, an aunt....a grand daughter, a niece.
I'm a Christian. I'm a lover and a fighter. I'm a believer!

I'm a high school drop out, with a diploma, however.
I have no desire to go back to school, hence the drop out.
----Does that make me less of a role model....a good mom? I don't see it that way

I have desires, hobbies, dreams...but where will they lead me?
I need to do something good with my life...I want to do good!

I've recently purchased "Eat Pray Love" and I'm hoping to start it this weekend. I'm hoping it's the kind of book I need right now. Call it self-help, call it motivation. I need this.

In the next couple of years, things are going to change drastically. I'm hoping that I change, too. The desires and dreams I hope to make a reality.

I would love to do something for charity...whether it be to run a race for a disease or donate.
I want to sponsor a Compassion child and share the extra love I have with them.
I want to be a teacher again and help children learn and grow. It's the best part!
I want to start photographing again and include scriptures with the photographs...
Nothing is better than seeing God's handy work through a verse and nature!


With an ending approaching, another book begins. I'm working on the chapters now and I'm hoping for the Happily Ever After this time.


But first, I need to find myself!

Wonderfully Wordy Random Winner

I never thought I'd have such a issue getting a winner for the Wonderfully Wordy giveaway. The vinyl of your choice is still up for grabs. The previous winners have yet to respond :(

I think I'm going to do this the easy way now! I'd love to tell Shelley that I have a winner...


So, here are the details...

The first one to comment on this post is the winner!!

Easy as pie.