Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I've Come To Realize....

I’ve come to realize that my body image is a constant battle. I have my good days where I'm out enjoying life, feeling good...then there's the bad where I just want to sit and eat a tub of ice cream and watch The Biggest Loser. HA :P
I’ve come to realize that my job is the best thing that has come around at this point in my life. It makes the time with my boys more precious; and I'm meeting new people, making new friends
I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving I'm at my best, completely mellow and oblivious to what's happening around me. Which is kinda scary once I write it down...but it's more that I'm unaware of the stress etc. in my life, not that I'm unaware of my surroundings. EEK! I'm just relaxed and tuned in to the music playing and the open road
I’ve come to realize that I need support. From my family, my friends, my husband. This new journey that I've embarked on has been a stressful and happy point in my life. Support is the number one thing I need from everyone in my life!
I’ve come to realize that I have lost my seriously, real marbles :) Actually, I've lost quite a few things in our move. They're not lost for good, just lost in boxes and bags!
I’ve come to realize that I hate the feeling of failure. It sure has lingered around a bit lately. It's like that raincloud that sits above your head. Well, Mr Cloud...I could use some sun please! However, it comes and I had some sunshine in my life
I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk...................(there wouldn't be anything here LOL)
I’ve come to realize that money comes and goes. You're working hard for your money, you get paid, you deposit your earnings...and back out it goes to pay for bills. AAAhhhh, the life of a grown up!
I’ve come to realize that certain people need to grow up....mature! We'll just leave it at that!
I’ve come to realize that I’ll always remember my People to People Ambassador trips to Australia and Europe. Those were two summers I will never forget. Learning new cultures, making new friends from the States and abroad, seeing Famous landmarks. It's unforgettable! I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s) are one in a million. My oldest sister is an amazing mom and a great sister....she's been there for me when I needed her and even been there to tell me the hard truth of things...and even though I don't take most of your advice, I'm still happy to know you care! I miss you :( And I've come to realize that my little sis is such a teen queen! And by that, I mean she's all over the JoBro scene and Taylor Swift. She's growing up too fast.
I’ve come to realize that my mom is my best friend and the greatest mom a daughter could have! We have a great relationship, I couldn't-wouldn't ask for anything more

I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is my's pretty much a mini computer (if you can go any tinier that my HP Mini lol). I use it for Facebook, twitter, internet, blogging...everything. Plus, it keeps me in touch with my family. I don't know what I'd do without my Crackberry (because it's an addiction, hehe)
I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning, I immediately jumped up thinking I had slept through my alarm. I have a lot of those mornings when I'm due at work. I have this fear of waking up 2 hours late. But, I'm a light I doubt it'll ever happen. But once that happens, the jumping up, I'm WIDE awake!
I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep, I knew I wanted to have dreams of Gerard Butler :) No, kidding....we just finished watching Gamer, he's one fine man! But really, I realized that I should've gone to bed earlier....I'm having serious sleep deprivation. (Hence, the blog post at 1am)
I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking that I should be making myself more useful and unpacking some boxes instead of blogging at 1am...or better yet, I should be sleeping!
I’ve come to realize that my dad loves my sister and I more than he lets on. He wasn't what you'd call a trophy dad, but I think he's doing his best nowadays. Between a lot of stress from a Traumatic event (google Charleston 9) and a Triple Bypass...I think he's a better person. He calls more, he apologizes, he helps.

I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook, I don't get off for hours. Whether it's catching up with old friends or "stalking"'s addicting. And when you add it the little apps such as Farmville, time gets easily wasted (However, my Farm has been neglected...OOps)
I’ve come to realize that today is going to be a good day. Cleaning up the house, training for work....and the Grey's Finale!!
I’ve come to realize that tomorrow we will have a clean and unpacked apartment. At least I hope so. I'm tired of looking at bags and boxes, I would like everything in it's place. I've come to realize that magic fairies who clean houses do not exist. Such a pity!
I’ve come to realize that I really want to win the lottery. Please, universe. I will do great things with the money, I promise.
I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to repost this is Sara, or my sister..but who knows!
I’ve come to realize that life is full of ups and downs, mistakes and triumphs. You learn as you grow, and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!!!!!
I’ve come to realize that this weekend is going to be a weekend of relaxation and movies. I have Friday and Saturday off and nothing planned. A little baby girl, niece, is supposed to make her appearance Friday morning..but that's all my excitement for this weekend.
I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset is anything Michael Buble. The sound of his voice is relaxing and the words to his songs are uplifting. Same goes for Josh Groban!
I've come to realize that my friends are few and far away. I'm hoping to make some new friends here in Cincinnati. It'd be great to have a Girl's Night or Game Nights again. I miss my friends in SC.
I’ve come to realize that this year has been a trying, but proving to be a growing experience- kind of year. I've been in my first car accident, I've moved away from family, lived on a very low income, and became a Part time Stay at home Mom. It's been a stressful path along the way, but I've learned from it all and only plan to strive for success on the rest of the journey.
I’ve come to realize that my husband has great book smarts....and can be a complete goof. Nothing like having a man who knows his math and computer etc skills, but then can act all silly and be in love with a snuggy!! HEHEHEI love that man :) (wonder if he'll read this, lol)
I’ve come to realize that maybe I should really sit down and focus on my crafts. I've got lots of projects to finish. Plus, I'd really like to get an Etsy shop running...but who knows
I’ve come to realize that I love my life! I am blessed beyond measure. I have 2 boys who love me, a family who supports me, a job I love and a roof over my head! It's all I need in life
I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand technology. I may be good with MY computer, but there's just some things I don't understand about this world and the technology that is coming about. It's crazy how much we have evolved! I remember the chunky flip pones and huge box tv's...and I thought those were nifty and difficult. Now there's flat screens with 1080p and touch screen phones. WOW!
I’ve come to realize my past is just that.. my past. Something to remember and learn from, but to move on from.
I’ve come to realize that parties are not my thing. I can’t think of anything worse than having to make conversation with people I don’t know. (I am horribly shy.)
I’ve come to realize that my life is amazing....worthwhile.....BLESSED

1 comment:

  1. This was so good!

    I hope you keep writing, this is powerful stuff.

    I too was horribly shy, and I have realized also the importance of not trying to handle it alone.

    One really wonderful place where I get lot's of support is "Social Anxiety Anonymous" support groups (both local and also by telephone conference call). It's free by the way (they are volunteer run and don't charge anything). Very supportive, very positive.